So I've began reading this book called " The Wasp Factory"...'tis very odd..It's about this boy who's 16 at the beginning and he has these totem poles of dead animals "warding off any intruder" ...and his younger brother is in a mental institution and has escaped...and The main character kills like 3 people and says it was just a phase he was going through...I love that paragraph though I haven't gotten to it yet, it's on the back of the book..."Two years after I murdered Blyth, I murdered my young brother Paul, for more quite different and fundamental reasons than I'd disposed of Blyth, and then a year after that I did for my young cousin Esmerelda, more or less on a whim.
That's my score to date. Three. I haven't killed anyone since, and I don't intend to ever again. It was just a phase I was going though." haha how twisted is that?!...I think it's great, I'm already fascinated by the main guy and I'm only 4 or 5 pages in it.
His name Is Frank.

So I've got a new thing....Is it possible that you can be so depressed that you can reach the point where you're not allowed to kill yourself and just be so depressed and become happy?...or elated?...I mean I've heard that you can be so ugly that you're cute....cause i think that happened to me today...I actually had a good day...which is new in my day and age...

That's about it for now except for this whole valentines day business...and what's with this fucking state holding so many concerts on this day? good ones too...ones that I will most certaintly miss.. oh well I am too obsessed with music anyways...i'm not really but one person tells me this because I focus on it to get my feelings out...which is a concept he can't understand...or something...i wouldn't know...maybe it's jealousy because i don't use him anymore...but he doesn't use me anymore so why should i?...yes that's right I am fully to the extent going to act like I am a retarded 5 yr old if someone is going to call me that (different person than the "he" in this paragraph)

Maybe as a kid his toys were taken away?

"I don't dream since I quit sleeping, I haven't slept since I met you."
How true is that?....

So what do you say...your coffin or mine?

Music: Alkaline Trio(obviously) albums- Goddamnit and Good Mourning
Reading: IM and the Closed Caption
Status: Nauseous